Ok... Two days later and I am back at the keyboard.... To share some insight into all things Dot, to update you on the growing family and the impact the little alien is having on the kiddos and to shed some wisdom or just plain dumb to my league of fans... Ok for myself to look at and say.. not bad... A lot of planning does not go into these posts, most nights it is an " All work and no play makes Jack and dull boy" start...white screen, some thoughts swirling around my head and fingers that tap way faster than I think... resulting in a few paragraphs about nothing...Hit the city today for a few meetings... did something I haven't done in years.. hopped the ferry and took a nice leisurely 45 minute ride into downtown... Each and every time I go into the city, I feel like I am walking into the lion's den... It has never felt right after 9/11.... yea the landscape has changed but more so the heart and soul changed and even though we have all moved on.. the change still lingers... Watching the skyline come at me as the boat approached downtown, I got this feeling in the pit of my stomach.. not fear or scared... more about control or lack there of... if someone wants to do something they will... nothing I can do... and what really bothers me is that doing something to me, really doesn't impact me at the end of the day... it impacts those around me, my family and friends... That sucks... because if I want to influence or impact my friends and family, I want it on my terms and not at the hand of someone else... Don't get me wrong, I am not paranoid or hung up on something happening to me or the city.. it is just a feeling I get when I get closer to the city... Flip side... taking the ferry in, you pass right by the Statue of Liberty... on a clear day, with crisp skies there isn't a better sight to see...
Looking out my office window I have a great view of Ellis Island... Babies are a lot like the immigrants that passed through the doors on Ellis Island... They left a safe comfortable place to travel to a place that was full of unknowns, they don't speak the language and had no clue about there new place...they are totally dependent on others to help them get started and over time they improve and contribute to the lives around them... until one day they are so blended in.. that we forget where they came from or how hard they fought to make in the early days...
Dot is doing well... I actually have found the dexterity in my meat hooks to unsnap those tiny, wee snaps that seem to be multiplying on her clothes... not sure how or why a piece of clothes that designed to fit something so small requires so many snaps...whatever happen to Velcro... pulling the diaper off is a piece of cake...can do that with my eyes half open.. what I have become an apprentice at all over again is getting it back on... I got the approval from Toots tonight that I did it right.. Yes Toots told me I did something right.. been a trend since she was wrong the other day... yes she was wrong.. ask her it was the first time ever...I'm not going to argue.. she is right.. and if she is wrong it will only be the second time...Sam Drive is where I left it... not that way.... I think she is getting lazy with the GPS in the Suburban... she can no longer navigate by the stars or smelling a leaf... I don't care cause I was right... Anyway.. I changed the diaper snapped the numerous snaps to their corresponding mates and had Dot resting comfortably in my arms...
Skipping a day means I missing some stuff... I promised myself in the last post that I wasn't going to go back as often... but yesterday warrants a trip... It was the 18th.. the day the counter committed that Dot would be born... glad she came early.. looking back over these past few weeks, it is easy to see the impact she made on the lives around her... the fact that it happened a few weeks early may not seem important but she changed some one's life... that might have not been changed if she decided to listen to the counter... Big Sis is in a funk... I think the reality of Dot is sinking in and she might be feeling a little left out.... It is tough, she is at that age where everything comes with drama... and if we don't pay attention to the star we here it from management. All we can do is reassure and give her patience... we know it won't be long until she is back in full fledged big sister mode... Little Guy still seems fine... a little less clingy, not so whining... and almost a little more self reliant... I wouldn't say the kiddos are jealous... I think they are awed and caught up in the activities that are going around and for Dot... As we settle deeper into the routine, they will rise from the funk...
I think that is it for tonight's musical interlude... I talked about the day, Dot, the kids and expressed myself. Nothing earth shattering or moving... but enough to make me think...
enjoy... keep those letters and cards coming...
Good night and be good...
One last thing.. love the comment that was posted last night... Thanks...
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